Photo Credit to Lena S.
That is a good question indeed. It has been too long since I last visited this place. Honestly, after Thailand nothing felt worth sharing or writing about. It is silly to let the greatness of one event take away from the good of ordinary things. I shouldn’t have let that and my creative low keep me from writing. When your muscles are sore you are supposed to keep moving, when a hangover plagues you you are supposed to keep drinking, when a writer’s block discourages you you must keep writing. At least, that is my conclusion.
The reason for coming back here was my best friend telling me he missed my blog posts and my pictures. Truthfully, I am quite surprised he hasn’t held a funeral for my creativity yet, since I haven’t been sharing much produce with him. Shame on me. And shame on me for finding the motivation in others. It is true that probably no one reads this beside him, but that shouldn’t stop me. Why do I need someone to appreciate what I do, to do it? Why can I not do something just for myself? I like to make people happy, I like crafting for other people, writing for other people, baking for other people, because knowing you can surprise someone else, excite them, is a wonderful motivation to me. It elates me, gets me thrilled for them to receive their present, and of course it would be a bit silly to bake a cake for myself. Or would it?
Actually, it’s not even like I don’t have anything I could share with the world. There are numerous photo series sitting in my library that doesn’t understand why it is being neglected. At least a dozen blog posts that I have written but never found sufficient, because I didn’t have a good picture for them, or didn’t like the phrasing of one sentence. So now I want to tell myself: It doesn’t matter. Because this can go two ways. Either what I create isn’t good enough because there is an audience and then that audience can be my motivation, or I can just share at my whim and not bother about whether some other mysterious internet user deems these blogposts read-worthy.
Choose the second option! And I will. For so long I have wanted this blog to be there for me and then shortly after I got it, I unconsciously discarded it. I demand my presence in here, as I stride towards year 2016 with a bundle of high ambitions. Better dream big.